Tony Rich Project - Nobody Knows It But Me

Yeah
Wish I told her how I feel
Maybe she'd be here right now
But instead

I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls close in more everyday
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
Now I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can see it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
Now I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside, and nobody knows it but me

I lie awake, its a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night
As if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still

Tomorrow morning I'll hit the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart
And hope you come back to me

Daily Juice

Dunno why, of all days which I don't have to work, I got up at 8am in the morning. Everyone knows I'm not a morning person. But I just got up........to the sound of someone's message ringing. Lol

Anyway, first agenda of the day was going around with Tim, Kevin and Johnston to look at some guitars at Uptown and Damansara area. I am soooo out of touch with the world of guitars. Can't really tell the difference between a good sounding guitar and a normal sounding guitar. But the guitars were so nice. *drool* But sadly, I'm on a budget. If not...........

Second agenda of the day was meeting up with Jennifer and her friends in Times Square. Haven't seen her for ages except for chatting with her online. And a rare occasion to catch her while she's down in KL. Spent the day with her and her girlfriends walking around while they shop. From Times Square til Pavilion. Oooh...my aching feet. Lol. Just kidding. And this is the first time I experience following real shopaholics.

They sweep across retail stores just as fast as a swarm of locusts across a corn field. Hahaha...so evil. Just kidding le.

Chris :Hmmm...this pants material looks like........
Jenn :Carpet?
Chris :Yea..sort of.
Jenn :Uh huh
Chris :So if someone wears this and sits and scoots around on a carpet, she can electrocute someone
Jenn :Lol.

See, I so good give you blue since you like that colour. Hahaha. For those who don't understand why I said "can electrocute someone", go study more science about creating static.

The last agenda for the day was going to Jogoya (it's Jogoya, pa. Not Gojoya) for my sister's early birthday dinner treat. It's a buffet style restaurant which serves mostly oriental but also some western cuisines. For the price (RM100+ per person) I'd say it's worth it. The selection of food would spoil you. Not to even mention their choices of desserts and ice cream. They give you Haagen Daz and Baskin Robbins, okay. Don't play play. Not some cheapo ice cream brand you can't even find. For those who are thinking of going for a buffet dinner, able and willing to spend to get good varieties and have not tried Jogoya at Starhill, it's high time you did. I used to like the buffet restaurant at Sunway Hotel. But after this, I found a new haven to commit the sin of gluttony. Lol.

So now, I'm tired and full. Perfect formula to sleep, eh.






Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............................

I don't feel like I wanna talk or think of you for the time being.

We never just talk things out. And when you have things you wanna spill out, you spill it to someone else. And I dunno what you're actually feeling or thinking.

I don't wanna cause you anymore unhappiness for now.

Sigh. Gonna need some people to keep me company for the time being. *ahem*

You know who you are. LOL

Thanks to those who gave me advise, tried comforting me and telling me things will be alright. Appreciate it a lot. Especially you, bro, who called me all the way from Aus.



Song Verse of the Day

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Wish I can play this song on a guitar now and let my emotions run free.

Strum it!!

For quite some time I've been meaning to get myself a new acoustic guitar and start learning how to play again. It always seems cool that most of the people around me can play it and I too want to be able to soothe myself with my own music.

It's been 7 years since I last played and learn so it's gonna be a little slow for me. My fingers are now stiff and no longer fast in switching chords. Hope someone can teach me how to play it again *nudges Tim and Johnston*

I've been speaking to someone who has lots of experience playing to give me suggestions for some low range, good quality guitar. I'm on a budget but I also require quality. Something within RM1500, maybe?

Here's some recommendation and some I found on my own (may not fit my budget but it sure looks cool)

Fender CD140SCE












Fender CD60SCE












Fender California Models Kingman SCE and Sonoran SCE












Epiphone AJ200SCE












Norman B20













I'm also partly doing this for someone.


Anyone else has any other recommendations or comments on these guitars? Do let me know.

Love Education

Love (according to the Oxford dictionary)
- warm liking or affection; sexual passion; loved person; (in games) no score; nil.

Love (according to Wikipedia)
- Love represents a range of human emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction.
- The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction. This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

Love - from WikiAnswers
1. Love differs from heart to heart, love can be good and can be bad. To love and be loved is the perfect ingredients to happiness but to love and not be loved will be a darkness in your soul. Being in love is like a drop of water after years of drought, it eases your souls agonies of life. Being in love is a feeling not all humans will experience. So if you have it cherish...just love it.

2. Love has never been defined since man began, so we have to use our own hearts and minds to decide. Love isn't all about looking at a good looking woman/man and hearing fireworks go off all the time. That's usually physical attraction, but it's normal at the beginning of our relationship. Love is respect, wanting to help that person in any aspect of their lives; protect them from harm's way; knowing that each other will be there 100%; feeling safe with that person; proud of being with them; sharing your hopes and dreams together; and my favorite ... feeling like you can conquer the world together! Knowing you will be together no matter what and continue on until the day you pass away. Now that's love to me!

3. Well I'm only 15 but from my opinion of love I just look at my boyfriend and I as a perfect example. Well, sometimes we argue and fight but no matter what we always find some kind of way to make up. If you love someone then you trust them, you can count on them when you need them most. Fine things mean nothing but time means everything. You should be able to tell each other everything. If you never argue then that's not love. And there really is no true definition of love because everyone feels different about the person they love. You can't just speak for everyone because what I was reading didn't make since to me and this was coming from Adults. But like i said i use me and my boyfriend as the perfect example of love in my eyes. We broke up and went back together 7x in one year and we've been together for 2 years. Right now we having our differences but believe me we will talk about this and be okay again because no one or nothing is gonna come in our way of love and no one or nothing will ever separate us.

4. Love is opening up to a person enough for them to destroy you, while trusting completely that they will not. (me like this quote)




I think I need more education on the above mentioned subject. What should be said, what should be done, etc etc etc.

Would those of you who are more experienced in this leave your comment and educate me further? Even for things you think I MAY know.

But please don't go telling me to treat my baby like a slave. Ain't gonna happen.

So, go ahead. Leave your comments. Educate me, please.

ps. This is NOT a post for you to tell your grandfather grandmother stories about what happened to your bf or gf. It's to know what love means to different people. Til now, there is no one single definition.

Oh so BORED.

For this 2 days (Thursday & Friday) I will be and am extremely bored sitting in the office.

Although I get to play computer games on my laptop or listen to songs.

But that's not the point. My bosses and some of the staff are overseas in Bangkok and did not leave any instructions or things to be completed within these 2 days. So, I'm practically just sitting there the whole day, waiting for lunch hour to arrive and after lunch, waiting to go home.

Sigh.

Oh. And I get to blog from my office. But it's so early in the day and nothing has happened yet. What the hell am I going to blog about??

Maybe I should just sleep there. No CCTV cameras to capture the moment.



Oh, and about the blog name thing, I've been meaning to change it since.....I lost count. So now it has been changed. It has a new name and a new blog address. Those of you who had linked me and STILL wish to continue reading my blog, do update your link.

And congrats to you if you DID manage to get to this blog in the first place. LOL

For a long time I've liked Bon Jovi's songs. Their classic rock rocks (pardon the pun) and some of the songs are preppy and some hits me at the right spots.

Bon Jovi
"Open All Night"

I saw you coming from a mile away
Trying to hide behind that pretty face
Bet my last dollar baby you been bruised
Poor little heart all black 'n' blue

Last thing you need's another pickup line
You must have heard them all a thousand times
God only knows what you been through
Believe me I've been broken too

It aches, it breaks, it takes your breath away
I've been around that block a time or two

[Chorus:]
Baby, I don't want to fall in love with you
I try, try, try but I can't get around the truth
Please don't say my name, give this heart a break
I don't want to make the same mistake but it's too late
I'll leave on the light
These arms are open all night

I got your taste in the back of my mouth
I want to reach in and pull it out
And I'd be lying if I didn't say
When you're this close I'm afraid
Of the way I'll feel if I touch your hair
The way I'll miss you when you're not there
And that I'll see you when I close my eyes
It's too late, I've crossed that line

It aches, it breaks, it takes your breath away
I'll still be around come closing time

[Chorus:]

[Guitar solo]

It's 2 am, it's last call, baby.
The barkeep's gone, I'll walk you home now
Save me, baby

[Chorus:]



"You Had Me From Hello"

At the mirror you fix your hair and put your makeup on
You're insecure about what clothes to wear
I can't see nothing wrong

To me you look so beautiful when you can't make up your mind
It's half past eight, it's getting late
It's OK, take your time

Standing here my hands in my pockets
Like I have a thousand times
Thinking back it took one breath
One word to change my life

[Chorus:]
The first time I saw you it felt like coming home
If I never told you I just want you to know
You had me from hello

When we walk into a crowded room it's like we're all alone
Everybody tries to kidnap your attention
You just smile and steal the show
You come to me and take my hand
We start dancin' slow
You put your lips up to my ear and whisper way down low

[Chorus:]

And when you're laying down beside me
I feel your heartbeat to remind me...

[Chorus:]

From hello
From hello



I'm extremely bored now. Waiting for lunch only. LOL

Jonas Brothers
"When You Look Me In The Eyes"

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,I
can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh




I'm so bored at work.

I said I love you

I don't know why but no matter how many times I listen to this song, I still don't get tired of it.

It isn't anything great and it's just slow and not really singing.


I Said I Love You

Baby come to me
I will chase your tears away
Put your trust in me
Girl I swear Ill never change
Darling you will see
That my love is here to stay
I promise you, I will be true
From here and now, forever girl I

I said I love you
I said I care
When I tell you I love you
It means I always will be there
Ill never leave you
I ain't going nowhere
When I tell you I love you
Cross my heart I will be there

Open up your heart
Don't be afraid to love again
We can take it slow
You should know I understand
Baby take your time
And I don't care how long it takes
cause I promise you, I'm here for you
From here and now, forever girl I

Chorus

And I will be there
(and I will be there for you)
Forever sincere to you
(girl I'll always care for you)
I just wanna share my life with you
Right here, right now, forever girl I




Oh. And I'm blogging from work. LOL

Ladies and Gentlemen, I present to you.....the new blog post of 2008!

*audience clap* *cuts red string*




Remember the last time i said "finally back to blogging"?

Well,I'm going to say the same again now. It's kinda good to be back. A place for me to throw my inner feelings.

The last time I blogged was earlier this year and it's been 6 months now. As usual, lots of things happened along the way and there were ups and downs.

First of, my 'actual' years of being in TOA has finally ended. The sad part is, I still have a term and a subject to complete to obtain my diploma. sigh. Now I think i regret dropping the subject. But I didn't expect something.

Secondly, I got a job right after graduation exhibition. A company called me up for an interview and I got the job. That was the unexpected something. So now I'm dividing my time between studying and working.

Third, attended my first Church Camp at Fraser's Pine Resort. Had a fun time there and a good fellowship with my church members since I don't really know a lot of them yet. It was mostly wet up there and it's not as cold as I expected unless I got wet when it rains.